melisschae

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2007-03-30T02:33:01Z

man. i don't know what to do anymore.

Habibi, Habibi, Habibi ya nour el ein.

2007-01-19T20:33:29Z

Caterpillars sleep in the bathtub.

First of all, my dog is the sweetest, most adorable little furball I've ever come into contact with. I haven't written in here in quite a while but I think I will cuz I can probably say more in here than in a myspace blog. It's been such a good vacation and I finally realized why yesterday. I did not hang out with Greg. I did not talk to Greg. I did not think about Greg..and I did not feel guilty about it. For me to be so obligated to a friend and have to sit and listen about every little thing he;s ever upset about is just not fun. I missed the carefree days and that's what I got back when Brittany and Patrice and I re-united. Dan has always been awesome but we've been chillin a lot lately too and that's really nice I've gotten really good at pool and semi-good at guitar...and he's gotten amazing at crash bandicoot. =) hehe. My puppy thinks she is a lap dog. A 65 lb lap dog. I want to go to teavana. & I have to go buy Sara a birthday present. crap. I'll pick it up on the way back from school on monday. It's gonna be so weird living so close to her. Good weird. (i hope) I can't wait for my apartment with ze fool keetchennn yaaaa.

Hours in the day that i spend doing nothing
worth somebody's while
I'm gonna go out & jam
I'm gonna go out & party
I've got a brand new mission
So bring your ass to the party

my girlfriend

2006-05-13T02:04:43Z

is at prom
with some guy
and i
am drunk
and will be even more drunk
when i get upstairs.

hello

2006-05-12T03:07:39Z

J’ai les pieds sur terre

2006-04-09T23:37:09Z

When you open up a book
For the first time
It's not about the first line, is it?

You never had it better
Than when I was with you, baby
So come back to earth,
let's drink some tea and smoke some herb

cool stuff.

2006-04-09T13:11:18Z

been using that phrase lately and i dont really like it. this morning i woke up on my downstairs couch fully dressed (jacket and everything)... eyeliner everywhere, one chuck still on. Tell me i didn't have a good night.

Chucks, click and tell me you dont want them

Melissa's myspace, comment.

ech.

2006-04-09T00:50:00Z

yup
broke into my house tonight
still in love with dahlia
going to a strip club, i think
speaking of strip, i stripped
like 500 roses this morning
talking to heads on aim
listening to portishead and eric pryds at the same time
AND I JUST WANNA GET DRUNK.

well

2006-04-04T14:02:00Z

I'm feeling a lot better about things these days.

just the smell of the summer can make me fall in love

2006-04-02T17:52:41Z

<3333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333333
IM SO FUCKING EXCITED.

IT'S HB TIME GIRLS.
PIPER + MELISSA = KLEDHRFAKL'WDDKKLSDAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so, here's the deal.

2006-04-02T04:15:17Z

i'll give things a shot like i have been but i dont know how much more im gonna be able to take, especially now that there's someone who really wants to be with me. Why should I be with someone who makes me feel like shit most of the time? I have a right to be happy to you know. right?

then why does it feel so wrong to think about leaving her?

if youre reading please comment, i really dont know what to do anymore.

Also, I think I might be gay emotionally but bi physically, but not like physically-physically..like not UGH why is this so confusing? I cant get emotionally attached to guys its like..impossible..is what im trying to say here. Maybe this needs its own entry, but i feel like talking about it. I dont think i could deal with having a boyfriend but i am physically attracted to guys (specific ones though) I'm more attracted to girls and im wayy more comfortable with the idea of being with a girl (because ive only been with girls since i was like 12) but dyou think thats why i cant be with a guy? is it possible that ive become so accustomed to dating girls that guys are just foreign beings to me? I've just been thinking that the whole reason i havent been able to really say yeah im bi or gay or whatever is because i havent allowed myself to step outside my comfort zone. i mean, i kinda did with dan but i got hurt with that so it was kinda like a slap in the face. i think someday i need to find a decent guy and date him for a while bc only then will i truly know whether or not i can have deep feelings for a guy. If the case remains the same I'll just leave that gender alone and stick with chicks. As of now I'm still unsure.

jsehtjhsedf

2006-03-23T15:54:18Z

bleh bleh bleh.

well

2006-03-21T15:11:35Z

today has been an okay day i guess. things havent been going great with dani apparently but i hope they get better. i lke taking walks in the morning. it's nice and it motivates me to get dressed early and all that good stuff. Man i get maddd e mails from GSA. la la la cowboy dan's major player in the cowboy scene. (:p . <--unibrow, cleft chin..sexy. aka dahlia's future husband. hahahah. im so retarded. i printed some pages for forensics..im doing a fresco on the wall today..im so excited to paint today. i ran out of supplies a while ago. im also excited about something that i wont talk about right now. even though i'd like to. :):) yeah piper's kinda happeh.

idancewithmyselfashundredsofeyesarewaitingcantstripcompletelyandthelightsareburningonme

2006-03-15T01:07:49Z

in love with myself<3 godd such a good song. Eh so i've been pretty sick lately..it sucks. i have a really bad headache right now. i drank some tea though. I feel good mentally too which is just as important. I dono i havent been feeling up to writing lately which is weird..so ive been filling a lot of my entries with lyrics..and i cant find my diary..and eh. i dont wanna be home schooled anymore..i wanna go to the beach..and lay in the sun with my feet in the sand..and fall asleep to the sound of waves crashing against the shore. sigh. Rehoboth was such a good experience...i just wanna do it all over again..god what a Summer.<3

I've waited for you winterlong..you seemed to be where i belong

2006-03-12T22:02:55Z

Waiting to follow
Through the dream light of your way
Is not so easy for me now

After time has passed your way
Things we thought of yesterday
Come back now

ugh. where is melissa?
all there is left is this mindless useless drone.

:(:(

2006-03-08T18:57:55Z

ugh. why is everything fucking up ? i hope things get better bc im worried. :(

happy lyrics cuz i need them:

As soon as I get my head around you
I come around catching sparks off you
I get an electric shock from you
This secondhand living just won't do
And the way I feel tonight
I could die and I wouldn't mind
And there's something going on inside
Makes you wanna feel
Makes you wanna try
Makes you wanna blow the stars from the sky
And I can't stand up
I can't cool down
I can't get my head off the ground
As soon as I get my head around you
I come around catching sparks off you
And all I ever got from you
Was all I ever took from you
Yeah, the world could die in pain
And I wouldn't feel no shame
And there's nothing holding me to blame
Makes you wanna feel
Makes you wanna try
Makes you wanna blow the stars from the sky
And I'm taking myself to a dirty part of town
Where all my troubles can't be found
I said yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
And I'm taking myself to a dirty part of town
Where all my troubles can't be found
Makes you wanna feel
Makes you wanna try
Makes you wanna blow the stars from the sky

well late last winter down below the equator they had a summer that would make you blister

2006-03-08T16:05:31Z

oh my mind is all made up so i'll have to sleep in it.

I think that girls are manipulative and overly emotional yet heartless (YES, HEARTLESS) and they lie, lie, LIE. If you think your girlfriend is telling you the truth, there is an 82% chance that she...is...LYINGGGGGGG. and I'm not even talking about me. I'm starting to feel for other people. Whatever, I'm not getting into it. Guys aren't any better. They're just kinda dumb. I think I will get myself a boyfriend. Girls are confusing. I'm tired of girls. No you know what? I'm pissed off. I'm pissed that I was a good girlfriend and I got destroyed so now I'm a piece of shit. IIII'M A PIECEEE OF SHIIIIIIIIT.

jesus christ i need to pick up more meds.